Flooding

It's as if everything everyone has ever felt is now bubbling up and brimming over the top. It really felt as if I was in a dream.

But you pinched me to let me know I was not.

I just felt the raw dirt and concrete dust mixed in with the dried and fresh salt of my own tears that had been locked up so long. The dirt doesn't scare me.

Everything I have been feeling for the past two months has been let out and I feel myself being relieved of everything.

This is the beginning of a new era. Everything is changing, like it always does. The everyday changes usually go by unnoticed. The thoughts occuring in each mind each second validate that. If you haven't realized by now, each thought is a change.

I have thought a lot about that picture with a person sitting holding a sign saying, "Keep your coins, I want change." I think this is absurd. I've spent too much of my life waiting for the change to come to me. Hah, "too much of my life." I'm so young. We are all so young.

Want your life to change? Change your thoughts.

Up for the challenge?

Tough.

Again, it starts off with me sitting here listening to the rest of you talk. But this time we're lazily sprawled on the grass. This grass isn't soft, and it's trying to penetrate my skin. Not like I'm going to let it. You're not as harsh as you think you are, grass. The rest of you are all complaining, inquiring as to why the hell I would want to sit here, and the bugs are annoying you. I block out your meaningless words. I like the grass, I like that it's not a fucking feather in a pillowcase.

Days later, I've dropped into my own little sort of fantasy world. I don't feel anymore, and I kind of like it. I'm not so sure where I'm going anymore, and I don't even know how to get to my nonexistent destination. I see my face getting softer and softer each day, yet I notice my features are becoming sharper than ever.

I feel like it's only a matter of time until our souls fall into the light and into the inexplicable bliss I know we have both felt before.

I feel like I've been able to sense your presence. I don't know who you are, but I know when you're near.